Hey I’ve been gone for a while haven’t I?
Well over the time I’ve been gone I’ve been doing loads of thinking and I’m helluva confused.
Somewhere while I was thinking, I was enlightened.
I realized that one sided love will never work out.
Well that was fast, Cherie.
I didn’t even cry over it. Sure, I felt pretty empty after that realization but I also felt free. It’s a nice feeling actually. I could finally guard my own heart myself. I didn’t have to worry someone else would break it. My heart was mine again and I’m just so relieved. I really don’t feel like giving it away either.
But I need to ask everyone.
What if someone comes along, persistent and willing to wait? Someone who seems all too good to be true?
I don’t know who to trust- myself or someone else?
I don’t want to let go of this feeling of freedom either.
I don’t want people to tell me not to but I don’t want the beautiful lie either.
Practicality tells me that this isn’t going to work out when my heart tells me ‘why not?’
My heart says ‘just take a leap of faith. while my brain reminds me of everything I went through to feel free again.
This constant battle is holding me back a lot. I don’t know if it is good or bad.
Don’t know what to do with this situation of mine and this entry doesn’t make sense anymore.