Thursday

You wore your heart on your sleeve,like a tree, where’s the leaf?
‘Cause you cared too much, about me.
We had it rough, growing up, but I had you and that was enough
You were a single mom, I bet that was tough

I never got to tell you despite those things that happened before you left and had to go
I love you and I know that goes unsaid, but I wanted to let you know
It’s sad to say, that life goes on, cause I wish you would go on too
No chunk of change can take your place, so I miss you and I’ll see you soon.

I wish that you could see me now, how I’ve grown up you’d be so proud
If you could watch me play, you’d cheer so loud
You taught me everything I know
I’ll be my word, I’ll keep playing shows
And I’ll picture you, in the first row

I never got to tell you despite those things that happened before you left and had to go
I love you and I know that goes unsaid, but I wanted to let you know
It’s sad to say, that life goes on, ’cause I wish you would go on too
No chunk of change can take your place, so I miss you and I’ll see you soon.

I won’t lie, my life has gotten tougher.
I ask why, did I have to lose my mother
I know for sure, I’d trade you for any other,
but I’ll be alright knowing you don’t have to suffer, anymore

To my dearest friend.

Missing you like crazy.

Cherie.

Pour moi.

Life didn’t start on a happy note,

It started with excruciating pain.

We started sad; crying or still

Happiness isn’t a right, it’s a privilege that we should always appreciate.

No point waiting- though they say good things comes to those who wait.

Lies.

Good things happen when they want to.

Pour moi.

 

Pain isn’t pain;

Till you’re curled up and shaking.

Crying isn’t crying;

Till you’re eyes are swollen and you’re so sure you’d go blind.

Loss is that heart clenching feeling in your chest suffocating you,

Just enough for you to squirm but not die.

Desperation is when something is so close, so needed yet missed by one wrong move.

Emptiness is that feeling you get where you don’t feel anchored to the ground anymore;

Floating emotions you refuse to grasp.

Sadness is the most comforting.

An inspirit that surrounds you in a calming coldness.

Love.

Love doesn’t exist.

Pour moi.

 

Yet the strange thing about everything is,

How they want everyone to be different yet stay the same.

It makes no sense that the more different you are they shun you;

Call you strange; call you queer.

For every difference you have they desperately try to chisel you back.

Back to their norm.

It makes no sense- no sense at all.

Pour moi.

Hopefully

Hopefully one day I’ll look back at life and smile
‘Cause I’ve been makin’ weird decisions for a while
I’m almost an adult but I’ve been acting like a child
And I need something soon to know it’s all worth while

Hopefully one day I’ll look back at life to see that
I’ve fufilled my hopes and dreams
‘Cause when m days are done and it’s time to go to sleep
I hope that I had fun so I can die happy.

I try so hard to make the right decisions
They tried to help me but no I never listened
I’m to damn stubborn and I’ll live by my own plan
So now they got me wishin’

Hopefully one day I’ll get away from this old town
And finally see what this world is all about
I feel like I’m stuck and I just can’t get out
So I’ll just look for hope to get rid of all this doubt

There’s not much that I can do
But hope to make it through

I try so hard to make the right decisions
They tried to help me but no I never listened
I’m to damn stubborn and I’ll live by my own plan
So now they got me wishin’

lilRIE’s Dragon Nest video

My Dragon Nest category has been very dead for a while. I NEED TO PERK IT UP.

Recently, I’ve been having lots of fun making videos. Mainly because I just found a new function on Windows Movie Maker noob.

MY INSPIRATION:

I’ve been watching lots of Dragon Nest videos online recently. Been looking for level 50 class transformations and tips to pick up for PvP (because DNSEA just doesn’t want to raise the damn level cap). It’s so fun to watch, I swear. Which makes me think, why can’t I do it?

So I set out to film a bunch of dungeons with my bowmaster, mixed in a little bit of PvP and using my newest function I learnt in WWM, I came up with this.

It took a while to do up, since I have school and such. But I was really excited for it so I rushed it.

Of course, I should have used a proper camera to film everything. But hey, first time for everything. *shrug*

I’ll be doing one for my sister’s account, Elemental Lord, soon.

Stay tuned!

Cherie.