WHY CAN’T YOU CHOOSE WHAT YOU FORGET . . . AND WHAT YOU REMEMBER?
There’s a lot Zoey would like to forget. Like how her father has knocked up his twenty-four-year old girlfriend. Like Zoey’s fear that the whole town will find out about her mom’s nervous breakdown. Like darkly handsome bad boy Doug taunting her at school. Feeling like her life is about to become a complete mess, Zoey fights back the only way she knows how, using her famous attention to detail to make sure she’s the perfect daughter, the perfect student, and the perfect girlfriend to ultra-popular football player Brandon. But then Zoey is in a car crash, and the next day there’s one thing she can’t remember at all–the entire night before. Did she go parking with Brandon, like she planned? And if so, why does it seem like Brandon is avoiding her? And why is Doug–of all people– suddenly acting as if something significant happened between the two of them? Zoey dimly remembers Doug pulling her from the wreck, but he keeps referring to what happened that night as if it was more, and it terrifies Zoey to admit how much is a blank to her. Controlled, meticulous Zoey is quickly losing her grip on the all-important details of her life–a life that seems strangely empty of Brandon, and strangely full of Doug.
Wow. What a heavy book. I thought it’d be one of those books you have to finish, put in a corner and wait till it thoroughly sinks in and have you loving it. I finished it and left it as it was for roughly 3 days. I did like it a little, but I don’t think it’d really want to read it again.
Bad news first:
I thought the book was really serious. So serious, it made me feel weird. I guess I wasn’t really expecting it so it came to me as quite a shock. No, it wasn’t because Zoey slept with Brandon on her first date, I could still handle that, though I’m such a die-hard romantic. Sometimes things like that ruins it for the reader.
I just wasn’t really fond of her being really sex-crazed after her first time. Is that really how girls react after they do it once? I was thinking more like curling up into a ball because she’d feel dirty, but hey, I have a lot to grow into. I didn’t like how she’d readily screw Dough just to get her memory back. She was really insincere about it. And though Dough was quite a jerk for controlling her life while she thought she was in control, I thought he didn’t deserve that.
I mean, damn. Loving a girl and having her constantly pushing you away and talking about her boyfriend must really suck balls, you know?
On the flip side…:
What I liked about the book was that it introduced the reader into a world of broken families. It showed me the life of a rich girl who seemed perfect on the outside but actually had a rather shitty life. There were themes of stigmatization and labeling, as well as lessons on patience and understanding. The turmoil in Zoey’s head while her mother was supposedly ‘loony’ was very well visualized and described too.
I found the book a little hard to finish. I almost didn’t finish the book because it was very slow moving and long winded at times. Not my cup of tea. From the name of the books and summary, I was hoping for a fluffy book. I guess I went into the book with totally-out-of-point expectations and was disappointed, though I can imagine the people who would enjoy this book. Hopefully you’ll find it a better read than I have.