Only yours

Words cannot express how much I love you anymore. And by anymore, I mean I used to think I could. But then again, I had only thought I could. 

I know because there are no more pretty phrases or poetry I can spin up to compare this love to, just raw emotion. So raw I can barely contain myself. 

So here you have me, a complete mess. I scare myself at night when I think about being far away from you the next day, the urge of just being in your presence wrecks me. I’m constantly waiting for your messages, however mundane. 

I sleep best in your arms. All I ever want to do with you is sleep. Because you stop my world in its tracks and it seems to tip off its axis if I stare at you too long. Yet I still do because I just can’t believe you’re mine. 

I love you so much I could cry. Because no matter how many times I tell you I love you, it just isn’t enough. I just want to be with you, it doesn’t matter what we’re doing, though the more bodily contact the better. 

I love you so much it hurts. When I have to sleep alone and my chest feels empty; my bed cold. When I have to sleep pretending you’re with me. Patting me to sleep. Anchoring me to this world. A world in which I have a life with you. 

So when I say ‘I love you’, know that I mean I love you so, so much. That I might cry if I said it too many times. 

Know that above all else, my heart is yours and yours only. And I’m so happy that it is this way. 

Leave Out All The Rest -Linkin Park

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
‘Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here?

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I’ve made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you’re asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can’t be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

(: 

I love feeding people, but I love feeding you most. 

I love spending money, but only on you. 

You’re the cutest when you’ve eaten too much and though you may get grumpy once in a while, I love you all the same. 

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