I tell them I want to die.

They tell me I’m stronger than that.

Carrot and stick.


Takesie – Backsies

You are too careless with
your words set in
stone you end up building a wall between us.

I am too careful with my words I
think everything through before I
say nothing at all.

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Today is Sunday and as much as I dread the hours it possesses, my only comfort is that it will all come to pass.
And tomorrow will be Monday and as fast it goes, Tuesday I am back where I started, pining for another day of supposed peace. 
My days are spent waiting for nothing in particular. Patiently waiting for something I cannot see. It gets under my skin, this pointlessness. 

I wish I could cut it out; remove it. But it is elusive, as I tear my skin apart looking for it.


Falling back to basics;
Back into stasis.
Surrendered control.

Why am I doing this?
It doesn’t matter,
Not now, not anymore;
At least not for a little while longer.

Because it’s the only thing that works,
It just does.

I can’t sleep.
Then again I don’t remember a time I could-
Close my eyes and hope for a better day.
As I always do,

A sinner praying for a miracle.
Stuck in an endless loop of