Study Week Logs

The following is of a constantly updated log of when I was studying for my final paper.
Or just attempting to study myself to death, now that I’ve read everything again.


Monday, 18 August 2014
0800hr GMT+8
I awaken from my slumber and my body is aching from scaling high walls the day before. I can barely move my fingers to clench into a fist around my phone but I try and try. Eventually, I managed to swipe the snooze button.

0825hr GMT+8
I swiped the snooze button too many time and am now late. My limbs are aching and I can barely pull my tank top over my head. I end up swapping my facial cleanser for toothpaste in the bathroom.

0835hr GMT+8
I’m eating buns I bought from AMK Hub the day before. All of them taste weird, I fear I have eaten something wrong to start my day off. The cream cheese was sour.

0850hr GMT+8
I exit the bathroom. In confirmation, I have indeed eaten something bad and managed to lose my entire breakfast within 15minutes. How the food traveled so fast through my system, I don’t know.

0905hr GMT+8
Missed the bus and next bus is in 15minutes. I inform study buddy that I will be late. I think she is still sleeping.

1015hr GMT+8
Despite being late, library is fairly empty. I set up my laptop and get to work.

1105hr GMT+8
Study buddy, Mia, arrives. She suggests lunch and we agree on going for instant meals downstairs as soon as I finish my first topic.

1245hr GMT+8
I start microwaving my meal.

1250hr GMT+8
I drop said meal (mac and cheese) on the floor of Cheers.

1255hr GMT+8
I buy an egg mayo sandwich and blueberry muffins.

1300hr GMT+8
I find out that both food items suck.

1400hr GMT+8
Chubby Bunny challenge is initiated mid-study. I managed to get up to 10 Chubby Bunnies. My cheeks hurt.

1600hr GMT+8
Study buddy has given up on studying. Boyfriend is coming to pick her up at 1700hrs.

1730hr GMT+8
I am about to give up studying myself when this happens.
I decide to press on.

1935hrs GMT+8
My hand can barely grip my stationary and I am going insane without human contact. I have started giving my notes personalities.
20140819_095223 20140819_095231 20140819_095242 20140819_095250 20140819_095256 20140819_095302 20140819_095307 20140819_095312 20140819_095318

2000hr GMT+8
The library is closing and I must go home. I almost finished Topic 2.

Tuesday, 19 August 2014
0800hr GMT+8
I think my body aches more than yesterday But I managed to get out of bed.

0845hr GMT+8
I am not hungry so I packed bread for school. Spread: Peanut Butter and Nutella.

0905hr GMT+8
I board the bus on time this time round and realized I have no idea if my study buddy is coming down today.

0945hr GMT+8
The study area is rather crowded today. I manage to find a table and set up my laptop.

1034hr GMT+8 
Study buddy inquires location through text, then called me because I did not reply. Meanwhile, I am caught for eating my breakfast in the library.

1037hr GMT+8
I get started on the remaining of Topic 2.

1136hr GMT+8
Finish Topic 2 that happens to be misnumbered, which explains why I studied the wrong chapter for the last quiz.

1145hrs GMT+8
We leave our seat to have lunch at the Applied Science school, leaving Private Kevin to guard our belongings.

1247hrs GMT+8
We walk over to Cheers because I was craving lollipops and came across a Hello Kitty Series My Melody figure. I plan to buy it as a little reward to myself on Friday after my studies.

13000hrs GMT+8

1315hr GMT+8
I begin revision on Luminaries Calculation questions.

1331 GMT+8
I have embarked on Topic 3.

1500hr GMT+8
‘The temperature rise of the water passing through the condenser should be 5°C with a difference of 5°C existing between the condensing temperature and the temperature of the water leaving the condenser.’
What the cheese did I just write down? I don’t know anymore.

1524hr GMT+8 
Screw Compressors. I agree.

1545hr GMT+8
I’ve already spelt ‘Refrigerant’ wrongly 5 times and am craving hugs, cuddles and warmth- so basically just my bed.

1606hr GMT+8
My black sharpie runs out of ink but I am prepared with another on hand.

1735hr GMT+8
Mia makes a Whatapp group called ‘The All SEC Rejects’ for Mia, QQ and I to arrange meetings easily.

1846hr GMT+8
I thought I was tired. Turns out I needed to pee so I toilet break-ed.

1914hr GMT+8
I finish Topic 3’s Theory and have decided that I am done for the day.

Wednesday, 20 Auguest 2014
0532hr GMT+8
I wake up suddenly from a bad dream and reach to check my phone for time and messages. I get caught by the room mate and promptly gets scolded for being up so early. I retaliate with as much aggression an early morning silence can take before forcing myself to sleep. I only manage to get to sleep an hour later.

0820hr GMT+8
I get to legally wake up in my own house now. I’m still extremely tired and the morning is chilly but I manage to get out of bed. Breakfast was leftover noodles and chicken from the day before. I’m bringing Quadratinis’ for snacking later.

0945hr GMT+8
I reach school earlier than expected. The tables are very empty so I get to pick the table most centered power outlet.

1013hr GMT+8
I get started on Topic 4. Observe that my exercise book is running out of pages. Study buddy also texted to inform that she would be late as she isn’t feeling well. I tell her to have lunch at home and decide to have my Quadratinis’ for lunch instead.

1138hr GMT+8
Finished half the bag of wafers and am very full. My music is making me feel a little sad but I don’t feel like changing it.

1327hr GMT+8
Mia and QQ arrives. I’m half way through Topic 4.

1415hr GMT+8
Mia teaches QQ how to draw a pad. The starting shape is a peanut shell. They are waiting for me to finish Topic 4 before going to lunch.
Mia also remarked ‘If anything (in the book) has anything to do with be ‘intelligent’, remember it if not it will outsmart you.’.

1435hr GMT+8
We go for lunch.

1535hr GMT+8
I attempt to change my calculator’s battery.
But I failed so Mia took over.
We were going too slow so QQ tried as well.
Then it turned out that I bought the wrong battery. FML.

1610hr GMT+8
I finish up the last of Topic 4 and start on Topic 5.

1700hr GMT+8
My hands are shaking as I write my notes. I’m not sure if it’s the coffee or if I’m coming down with something.

1825hr GMT+8
I didn’t notice the time go by. I’m barely half way through Topic 5. I’m freezing and drying heaving.

1905hr GMT+8
I almost hit the half way mark. I burped and I could still taste breakfast. I’ve dropped my stationary involuntarily 4 times in the last 15mins. If this log is posted without other days logged in, you can safely say that I am dead.

1915hr GMT+8
My saliva started tasting like melted aspirins so I wash it down with water cooler water only to find that said water tastes like chloride/pool water.

1947hr GMT+8
I finally hit the half way mark of Topic 5. My head is pounding so I think I’ll stop here for now and continue tomorrow.

Thursday, 21 August 2014
0730hr GMT+8
I wake up after at least 8hours of sleep. My toothpaste tastes funny and I remember that I should be checking my temperature. I’m at 38.5°C but I don’t feel too horrible so I prepare for school.

0830hr GMT+8
Strangely, I do not feel hungry so I skip breakfast for now or at least till I get hungry later.

0900hr GMT+8
I’m in the bus. I’m sleepy but I can’t seem to fall asleep. Reminds me of the time I was on meds.

1006hr GMT+8

I reach school and remember that study buddy mentioned that she’s sick as well so I may be by myself today depending if QQ decides to come down. I also watch a couple videos before I get down to doing anything productive. Mental note to buy new blades for the penknife.

1026hr GMT+8
I get started with the last of Topic 5.

1306hr GMT+8
I finally finish Topic 5 and realize that it’s lunch time. I’m not hungry and even if I may sometime be, I’m not sure what to get. Maybe I’ll get coffee when I go down to buy stationary for my tutorial revision later.

1336hr GMT+8
Study buddies arrive and we head down to have lunch and I have a slight meltdown when I end up missing both lifts while I’m walking over.

1341hr GMT+8
We reach the ground floor and I finally get to sun myself after freezing over in the library courtesy of my fever.
Yes, I do realize that my left arm seems a tad broken but it’s not.

1350hr GMT+8
Definitely delirious at this point, Mia (sick) and I (also sick) take really stupid pictures.

1400hr GMT+8
We sit down for a light lunch. None of us are eating alot because QQ is going for his NAFA run while Mia and I don’t really have much appetite. I bought coffee too but for the first time ever, I couldn’t finish it.

1439hr GMT+8
We (or at least just Mia) attempted to change my calculator batteries again.
A 5 year old battery.
Mia was kind of amazed with the inside of the calculator. I was too, except I was too tired to react to anything.
I am blessed to know that my calculation will last me another 5 years even though I don’t count on using it anymore after my final paper.

1422hr GMT+8
Mia and I head down to print past year papers.

1445hr GMT+8
Mia asks me if I would ever turn lesbian after I show her my girl crush on instagram. I reply saying ‘No, I only want to be the guy I want to be with because birds of a feather flock together.’
She proceeds to ask me if I would still go for a guy who turns out to be transgender. I say No, ‘because the sex would be weird’.

1509hr GMT+8
We return from our paper printing and I start on Tutorial 1. Within 5 minutes, I manage to misspell ‘Tutorial #1’ as ‘Totorial #1’.

1615hr GMT+8
QQ is done with his NAFA retake. He didn’t manage to get a silver and Mia said he looked sad and defeated when she met him at the bookshop. I am also reminded a little too late that I was supposed to get blades for the penknife.

1743hr GMT+8
Was finishing Tutorial 2 when Mia snapped at picture of the current war zone of a table we are studying in.

1923hr GMT+8
I’m done with Tutorial 2. Where did the time go? On the bright side, I think my fever broke.

1931hr GMT+8
I start on Tutorial 3. Surely 9 questions wouldn’t be too hard.

2008hr GMT+8
I’m being chased out my the librarian. I’m still at question 8 of Tutorial 3. I guess I’ll pack up and finish up the last of it tomorrow.

Friday, 22 August 2014
0800hr GMT+8
I get up and for the first time this week I don’t feel sore or fatigued. In fact, I’m in a glorious mood and my hair looks fierce.

0815hr GMT+8
To wake myself up more, I download an app called Timberman from the app store and play it long enough to beat a highscore a friend posted on Facebook the day before.
I can safely say I’m pretty addicted to it right now.

0835hr GMT+8
I settle down for breakfast. Am famished. Glad my appetite is back.
Roomie also packs Banana-Nutella bread for me to bring to school because she noticed that I was looking sad and pathetic the last few days.

0905hr GMT+8
I arrive downstairs just as the bus arrives. Today seems like a good day.

0945hr GMT+8
I reach school and as I adjust my backpack, a strap gives way and I drop my bag (essentially my laptop) on the ground. I know I should have screamed but instead I’m trying to keep myself from laughing.

0955hr GMT+8
Sudden realization that my laptop is already in itself, dying, and that it may not turn on later on.

1000hr GMT+8
I find out, to my relief, that it still works.

1015hr GMT+8
I finish the 4 slices of banana-nutella sandwiches in my bag and realize to my horror that I’d just eaten 7 slices of bread within a span of 2hours.

1024hr GMT+8
I get started on the remaining questions of Tutorial 3.

1146hr GMT+8
I realize that I just spent an hour attempting to figure out how to solve a calculation question.

1222hr GMT+8
I keep hearing vibrations from my table. I’m not sure if someone is pulling some kinky prank on me or if I’m finally going insane.

1235hr GMT+8
I’m can’t seem to do an advanced question from Tutorial 3 so I’m skipping it and moving on to Tutorial 4. Mental note to ask Mia if she knows how to do it or if we can text someone for visual answers.

1344hr GMT+8
Study buddies arrive. I’m half way through Tutorial 4.

1434hr GMT+8
I finish Tutorial 4 and am moving on to Tutorial 5. Meanwhile, Mia points out the damage on my laptop.

1502hr GMT+8
We go for lunch. I have cup noodles and Yuzu juice.

1535hr GMT+8
I’m not sure if I’m still hungry so I go back to Cheers to see if I want anything.

1612hr GMT+8
Instead I smuggle stuff up to the library for Mia.

1614hr GMT+8
I get back to work on Tutorial 5.

1655hr GMT+8
Mia attempts to flip me off my chair and I choke on a chocolate pretzel.

1805hr GMT+8
I finally finish Tutorial 5.

1902hr GMT+8
Finished MCQs for one past year paper. Am taking a short break before I move on to theory and calculation questions. But first, lemme take a selfie.

1908hr GMT+8
We start theory questions.

2010hr GMT+8
Mia is still here with me but her mother is coming to pick her up. I guess I’ll leave when she does.

2025hr GMT+8
Mia’s mom is here so I guess I’m going.

Saturday, 23 August 2014 (SUMMARY)
One of the days that I allow myself to sleep in. I wake at 12pm and play afew rounds with the PSO team but I start lagging and retire to my quarters (give up), which is where I find a bunch of random things in the middle of my room.

Procrastinating my studies, I attempt to teach a friend Chinese from scratch (not that I’m that good, it’s just that I know so little, there’s so little to teach), much to my delight and amusement. He still can’t say ‘fish’ in chinese, Yu-er.

Finally, I start studying/ doing past year papers at 3pm till 6.30pm, where Roomie suggests we go down for dinner.
I only get back home at 8pm, where Roomie goes and watch a couple of movies in my sister’s room while I proceed to strum a few songs on my guitar and scare myself shitless with Pewdiepie videos (DreadOut got me).

I was half way through watching the Silent Hill PS4 Playable Trailer when my internet disconnected me from the internet, which was a good thing because I was already so spooked and had to look at pictures of puppies on Tumblr to get to sleep.

Sunday, 24 August 2014 (SUMMARY)
I wake up at 12pm thanks to my brother-in-law harassing me and only manage to have lunch at 1pm because I lazed around in bed. I go back online to PSO to play with the team but my lag is still there (probably because I dropped my laptop a few days ago) so I stay at the lobby to chat with other players till I get bored.

A while later, my friend starts playing Resident Evil 4 on share screen and I decide to start doing past year papers because he kept shooting the zombies in the crotch and dying after because he ran out of ammo.

At 6.30pm, I leave the house to meet the Mother and only get home at roughly 8pm to wash up and get back online.

It seems that my lag is here to stay because I managed to lag in the lobby of PSO (normally I do not) as well. I complain to the team and they start recommending laptops for me to change to. Suddenly motivated to research, I start looking at laptops online (mainly Acer, because their new laptops looks really good).

I am also reminded that I have to get my Freddy Krueger top within this week or I won’t make it for STGCC and I start stressing out at 11.00pm over it till I finally find it on Carousell.

Monday, 25 August 2014
0815hr GMT+8
I wake up with the song ‘Anaconda’ by Nikki Minaj stuck in my head and decide it is a good day.

0835hr GMT+8
I have breakfast, Mr Bean pancakes, and forget the flavours I bought the day before. Roomie informs me that Dad is ordering KFC tonight for dinner. I guess I know what I’m having for breakfast tomorrow.

0955hr GMT+8
I reach school while study buddy is on her way. She’s having a sore throat so she’ll have to watch what she’s having for lunch today.

1030hr GMT+8
I set up and start looking at definitions to memorize for tomorrow.

1130hr GMT+8
I start grilling Mia.

1300hr GMT+8
We go for lunch and I have instant noodles with instant egg again. Afterwards we buy chocolate (I think my period is coming again. TMI but I don’t care.) for mugging and head up.

1335hr GMT+8
Mia successfully remembers Kyoto Protocol.

1541hr GMT+8
We just get to Topic 3 revision.

1728hr GMT+8
We are half way through Topic 4!

1829hr GMT+8
We are done Topic 5 revision and decide to head back home early.

All the best to us!


The Last Lap

Waddap, guys.

I have finally made it.

Well, sort of.

I just entered my last semester of school and my main exams are only 13 working (actual schooling) weeks away! I like the thought that I can roughly count down to how many weeks I have left in school but the more I blabber about it to others, the more it sounds like a jail sentence. If so, I’d better behave. Parole?

That being said, I regret to inform that I am in no mood for school at all. I haven’t bought my books and I still sit at the back of my class. Last I checked, two out of the three modules I’m taking requires group work on a 50% marking grid and I’m as sociable as a brick.

I feel like I graduated together with my other friends, who right now are like:

I apologize for following suit.

You see, I don’t feel like I’ve been in school for over a year. No, it’s not because of my depression, but because I’d spent a year not learning anything.

This is different from when my guardian taught me how to trim my own nails recently.
Don’t take me to be a spoiled brat, please. There are just something I don’t particularly care about to a point that people have to sit me down and do it for me. Or in this case, teach Cherie how to cut her nails and she would never have to waste tens of hundreds of dollars sitting in a nail salon.

Back to the point of not learning anything in the past 12 months or so, I really haven’t. The last 6 months, I’d spent my time re-taking modules for all that I’d failed two semesters ago and the 6 months before that, I was slaving away (well, not really) at my interning office. Yeap, no learning whatsoever, though I may have come across a few new porn genres… Alright, I kid.

But seriously, can you imagine how unpracticed I am with the whole notion of learning? I get to class and suddenly I’m thrown into this whirlwind of bizarre terminologies and monotonous lectures. I can’t skip lectures anymore in fear that I’d miss something (though I don’t exactly catch anything while I’m there) and I have to double check my classrooms because I am (still) so terrible with faces, it’s been two weeks and I still can’t remember a single classmate’s face. I won’t even start on how easily my classmates register information, making class skip ahead faster than I’d prefer and… and…

But I can’t give up now, can I? I only have 13 more weeks to go.

But that also means I only have 13 more weeks till my main exams.

13 more weeks to master 3 modules I am totally new to.

13 more weeks till I find out if I get to graduate or go into 4.2.

13 more weeks till I have to either graduate, get a job or not graduate and be buried alive by my dad.

I am not prepared at all.

I guess for a start I’ll buy my books and get started with my assignments.

It doesn’t help that I’m posting this at three in the morning. But hey, at least I said I’ll try. Don’t you give people brownie points if they try? Or maybe just a brownie. I’d settle for that right now.

More bad news, I heard there is going to be tedious calculation questions in all my modules this semester. I am very intimidated and dreadful, of course. But I must not forget that I am an engineer in training and that math can rule the world.

I’d better end here. It occurs to me that the earlier it get in the morning, the weirder things seem to get.




I’ve been on Jubeat a little too much these days. I’m stressed out and when I am, I need my Jubeat breaks.

Ah Jubeat, whatever would I do without you?

Alas, you are the only game that I can listening only to and have you drown out all my thoughts.

Cheh. Anywho, this week has been particularly rough since I’ve attempted (or actually have)to quit him. Tapping frantically away on a machine has proven to be rather effective, so I’d opted for it. So far, my rank still teeters at the ranking of a lotus and a beetle, but that doesn’t matter, it’s the therapy that counts.

On the other hand, I’ve taken quite a liking to watching my fingers move over the machine as I play. It makes me feel like I’m actually good at something.

So without further ado, here are to videos (that I’ve been keeping in my phone for far too long):

A few things I noticed: 

  • In a video, I play with two fingers seemingly stuck together and it looks really weird. At least that’s what I think. I figured that that was why I couldn’t press certain buttons fast enough so I tried to spread them out during the other songs but I got a little nervous and they stuck back together again.
  • I tap a little too fast and out of sync. Maybe that’s why my score is never past an A.
  • I dance behind the machine too much.
  • I like to molest the keys.

Alrighty, it’s late and I have tests to study for. Hopefully the next post I write will be about how hard I’ve been studying and not how much effort I put into watching myself game and trying to improve my gaming.